dirty

marriage weakens an individual.

only when one is prepared to sacrifice, then, she/he is prepared. if one is not prepared to sacrifice, then don't bother marrying. what is getting married? getting married means getting into trouble. that is if you are married at a young age and also unprepared. when you are unprepared, you'll find that you will trouble many many people around you. for instance, your own parents. you are considered unprepared too, when your own relationships with your parents are still 'weak'. how to live with another new person, when you are not close enough/ don't understand your parents well enough? or when you always depend on your parents for simple simple things. like you depend on your father for money. and expecting your mother to clean your house for you.

another thing is, men are just ignorant people.
they don't care about anything unless it concerns himself.
sigh. this is sad. and they are dirty people too.
dirrrrttttyyyyy.

i always see men.
men ogling at women.
that is gross.
and it makes my hair stand.
and it makes me lose my appetite.
dirty.

im not sure what happened to me but im just pretty disgusted.

by everything.

i feel like vomitting.
been eating what i dont want to eat.
been eating when i dont want to eat.
been eating because i have to eat for energy.

and the house is in a mess.
and of course, messy means dirty.
dirrrrttty.

bleargh.