today, is a sad and happy day

so many things happen today.

making me smile.

making me laugh.

making me frown.

and making me cringe.

things that make me decide on some issues.

things that make me want to change.

i've been looking for answers.

i know the answers will not appear just like that.

i need time.

to think.

to reflect.

whilst that happen, i look around.

i look everywhere.

and i know there is a glimmer of light somewhere.

and i need to find where the light is coming from.

to do that,

i seek help.

and the help is from Allah.

insyaAllah, i will try as hard as i can.

today, as i say, my jc is celebratin friendship day. the moment i stepped into the school, i seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee PEOPLE. crowds. j1s sitting at my usual place for 3 days in a row making me feel so... lost. so, i was saying, people were distributing gifts while i was searching for someone i know. and then, the light appears. i saw mumtaz! with her big paper bag (which she made me carry for the whole day). so, we decided to go to class since we had nowhere to go.

tada! kar mun and nida are in class. so we decided to give our gifts to them. :) i just love my wrapping. :) and of course, i received chocs/tidbits from them. and a card with uncensored stuff from mumtaz. but it was meaningful. haha! (friends are like _ _ _ _.) the best metaphor.

okay, so for the whole day, people are just busy giving out presents.

appreciate the lot who gave me. thank you thank you. you all made my day! (that was what i thought)

unfortunately, here comes the cip. kids were unusually behaving 'wild' today. and i dont understand why kids have to be so expressive. it has been a long time since i got insulted. so enough in testing my patience. the programme, i thought it was going to be a success. whatever it is, i'll try again. i'll try as much as i can to make them understand their concept. but i need their cooperation and their own willingness. for the first time, i felt so tired after the cip. usually, i would be tired from school but not tired after helping them. what happened, asmirah?

anyway, after that, had my late lunch at pizza hut with aisyah and mumtaz. as usual the service there was unsatisfying but im not making such a fuss out of it. followed by dessert at delifrance.
well, at least that made me less upset.

again, thank you, thank you, for being there to layan my nonsense.

alrights, im done with it. hopefully this is the last time im going to be upset from cip.

:)