asmirah is better

OKAY! second post today, 100th post of 2009, and it is only the mid of feb. okay, it's not even the mid. hurhurhur. i just came back from cycling/suntanning with clothes on. it wasnt as tiring as it used to be, probably because i cycled at an ant's pace and also, stopping by at some shops to buy drinks. and if you know me, buying drinks (esp sweet ones) are just not my usual habit. Vitasoy & orange juice being the exception.


though it was hot outside, i still make an effort to go out just to embrace the new week with a good beginning. so, i cycled there. very few people, i know, but i continued. when i reached the beach, many people esp the malay community were fishing. :) that is a good thing. them and their families, having a good time. i wish, us, can be like that but we just lack of skills. too much talent in teaching malay here. zzz. oh plus, eating. moving on, it was quite windy there, so i just dropped my bicycle onto the grass patch, and sat beside it. exceptionally hot but relaxing today.


people might say im so emo or i think too much or i look too much into things. but, whatever. it's called life. life requires us to think about things. that's why i need a place like 'there' to think.


i still enjoy my life though.


after tt, i cycled back. bought drinks and abc biscuits from biscuit shop. and headed home. it has been such a long time since someone called me "girl". i think the uncle just made my day better. haha! the exact words, "thank you, girl!" and he really mean im like a young girl. a school girl, to be precise. it's always me who looks old. since im tall and bigger than my older sister, people always mistake me for her and mistake her for me. and just because i look like my 2nd sister, people always think im her. i hateeeee those people who cant differentiate. freaks. sigh, big sigh. stop comparing. just stop.


only february, i know and im already like this.
what is august, sept, oct, nov and dec like?


i wish i can just stay somewhere else until i complete my A's. i dont want people to be affected by me and my mood. like how i wasnt thinking, yesterday. subconsciously, i was just screaming at my sister outside. yeah, okay im rude. she complained. and i kept quiet. seriously, i'd rather keep to myself than argue. heck.


and i dont want to be affected by them.


anyway, since i still have respect for my parents, i have to stay on and live here, right? and anyway, where am i gonna get the money?


limitations...


yeah, so anyway, im hoping for a better week with less conflict between me and my thinkings. life will comprise of only me and my studies. yes! :)